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26 June 2005 @ 01:50 am
sequel to "Yesterfuck"  
Title: Don't apologise (Sequel to Yesterfuck)
Pairing: J/P
Rating: R/NC-17
Notes: I'm sorry the sequel's not a happy one... but at least there are more slashy details...
Words: 625

“What took you,” John growled, “so bloody long?”

“I,” Paul gasped, “came as fast as I could!”

Fucking drama queen. All right. Here come the excuses.

“John,” Paul murmured, standing in the entryway, “I’m so sorry I didn’t call you earlier…”

“I thought,” John bit, “you said you thought I was going to call you.”

“Ah… I mh…”

“So was she a blonde? Brunette? Or maybe a redhead?”

She? … John! The only ‘she’ I’ve been with all day has a wet nose and floppy ears!”

John remained where he stood, keeping Paul in the foyer. Stop being so fucking cute, Macca. Make me believe that. Please.

“John, I’m sorry I didn’t call you. I was too fucking chicken. I didn’t know what to say. I was afraid of what you’d say… I was afraid you’d… I don’t know… I… was just afraid. I’m sorry.”

“Is that all?”

“Can I come in and sit down? Or am I just supposed to stand and deliver before you send me on my way?”

Damn you.

“Come in, then.”

John turned and walked to the sitting room. Paul followed, trying to read John’s expression from the back of his head.

“Sit down.”

Paul sat. John crossed the room and poured a glass of scotch, neat. He tossed it back and poured another for himself and one for Paul.

“… I’m sorry…”

“Macca, don’t apologise again unless you have something else to apologise for.”

Paul nursed his scotch, brow creased.

“… Is there something else you’re apologising for?”

“What are we doing, John?”

“What are you talking about?”

“Fighting all the time. All this fucking tension. Working later and later and it’s still shit because we can’t fucking stand each other. And then last night…” Paul trailed off.

Last night when I was about to tell you to fuck off if you said one more word, and you turned to me, and you were so tired, and you just looked at me and sighed, and your face relaxed, and you were beautiful, Paulie…

“Last night…” John murmured, trying to sound bitter. He stared into his glass.

We went for a drink. Your voice was shot, so was mine. After a few rounds we left and started walking; we must’ve walked three miles, it seemed. Talking about stupid things. And you were beautiful… so beautiful, Paulie…

“It was different …” Paul whispered, eyes misting, staring into a corner.

John swallowed.

“All night… I kept thinking about it … it’s been over a month since the last time, but… this was different from any other time…”

Then we stopped talking because we were at my door. We went in. You turned to me and I kissed you, and you kissed back like it was the most natural thing in the world and we hadn’t been ready to kill each other all day. I held you tight and you kissed me harder, pressing yourself against me, and you were shaking, and I knew I wouldn’t be able to let go of you and let you walk out that door…

“… and all day… I kept… I…”

… We hardly made it to the bed. There was no discussion; we just stripped each other bare and started fucking. Vaseline by the nightstand, you didn’t ask any questions, you just moaned when I put my fingers inside you…

“… John?”

… I couldn’t finish fucking you, even though you were about to come; I wanted you inside me…

“J… John… please say something…”

You were so gentle, you made love to me like it was the last…


“It’s too late for us, isn’t it?”

Paul wiped at John’s tears, ignoring his own.

“What do you think?” Paul’s voice was hardly a whisper.

oh_johnny_oh_johnny_ on June 26th, 2005 11:31 am (UTC)
Oh. My. God.

This is brilliant.
Sara the Geek: George choking John by freakish_moronpocket_mystic on June 26th, 2005 02:13 pm (UTC)
*tears up* Wonderful job, my dear.
savoytruffle27 on June 26th, 2005 02:53 pm (UTC)
oh shit.. you made me cry!

Il Gatto Puzzolone: catnip_martini on June 27th, 2005 10:19 pm (UTC)
... *whimper*


Nnnnnn.... *headfloor* 'S bad for me, reading this, babe. *sniffle* 'S good though. 'S very good. Just very sad.

apartment42b: J/P loveapartment42b on June 28th, 2005 12:09 am (UTC)
*holdsyou* mmaaww. *snugglelove*
Lubaba, Lu[lu], Babalu, Lubabs, Lubarubixcubashunemo711 on July 1st, 2005 10:28 pm (UTC)
Mphphph. Beauty-full.