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11 July 2005 @ 11:05 pm
Trying Things

By Cate

Summary: John/Paul ficlet thingy, John's point of view. Slightly bitchy.

Word Count: 411.

Note: This was inspired by a line that oh_johnny_ came up with. I thought it was brilliant, and was invited to use it in any way I liked, any style. This is what I came up with. Thank you, oh_johnny_! ♥

I've tried a lot of things. Lying, cheating, drunken debauchery. I've been so high I hadn't the vaguest clue who I was, and so low I've wished for that luxury. Flying like a fucking kite, no shit; I've been there so many fucking times I don't even bother counting anymore. But nothing like this had ever occured to me, to lie under another man, legs parted and back arched, panting and groaning his name as he fucked me-- fucked me, the words still seem to escape my cognative mind-- laying into me hard... and kissed me. And it's out of the question that I'd ever kiss him back.

Seems that's gone out the window though. I don't know whether to be elated that it feels so fucking amazing, afraid that everything's going to go to hell, or angry-- with him or myself, I'm not sure which-- that it even bloody happened. He's been quiet since then, and I've been sitting in one spot, smoking and drinking and all but pissing myself. Call me pathetic, call me what you will; I don't recall ever feeling this way, not because I felt this much for someone. I don't know if I ever have felt this much for anyone before.

Of course, I wouldn't ever tell him that. He already has an ego almost as large as his cock. He's an archangel, a meteoric fucking vision of truth and beauty, to hear him talk of it. If he knew he'd successfully seduced John Lennon, I shudder to think what it would do to his mentality.

I do love him. Or at least I think I do. If this is love, I hadn't known previously what it was like; I think it must be, because he aggravates and excites and arouses me in all the wrong ways, but it seems so right when we're lying in his bed at the hotel, illicitly holding each other after a long, hard, illicit fuck, when he kisses my hair and murmurs in my ear: "you're beautiful, Johnny." And sometimes I believe him-- sometimes, when I breathe his scent and kiss the sweat off his chest that I aided in putting there-- just sometimes, I know he's telling me the truth.

Can it ever be wrong to fall for someone? Could it be wrong to want him, to cry in his arms, to sleep in his bed?

I've tried a lot of things. But I've never tried this before.

Current Mood: accomplishedaccomplished
Current Music: "Viva Las Vegas"-- Elvis Presley
Appyhighregister on July 12th, 2005 07:16 am (UTC)
Urg. It's so beautiful.

Il Gatto Puzzolonecatnip_martini on July 12th, 2005 07:28 pm (UTC)
Aw, thanks very much! ♥

oceanchild808oceanchild808 on July 12th, 2005 08:01 am (UTC)
Holy schamoly! That is hot. Great job!!
Il Gatto Puzzolonecatnip_martini on July 12th, 2005 07:28 pm (UTC)
Thank you! ♥

oh_johnny_oh_johnny_ on July 12th, 2005 10:44 am (UTC)

This is amazing. Soooo hot. So good.

Well done.

Il Gatto Puzzolonecatnip_martini on July 12th, 2005 07:28 pm (UTC)
Thank you! :D I'm happy with how this one worked out. Thanks for the line! *giggle*

savoytruffle27 on July 12th, 2005 12:35 pm (UTC)
I love reading the inner workings of John's mind.. and you my dear do it wonderfully!

P.S - I am absolutely hanging for the next chapter of your J/P war story.. *pokes you* faster faster! ;)
beatle_becks on July 12th, 2005 01:34 pm (UTC)
*raises hand*


Il Gatto Puzzolonecatnip_martini on July 12th, 2005 07:27 pm (UTC)

:D I'm going as fast as I can. *giggle* This is proving to be a relatively easy chapter, but I've been working so much this month that it's all I can do not to pass out when I get home. Hope to get a lot done today.

hollywood_song on July 12th, 2005 03:45 pm (UTC)

Great job!
Il Gatto Puzzolonecatnip_martini on July 12th, 2005 07:25 pm (UTC)
:) Thanks, luv!

apartment42bapartment42b on July 12th, 2005 08:04 pm (UTC)
rrr, hot... :)
interplanetblobinterplanetblob on July 14th, 2005 08:42 pm (UTC)
Is your name related at all to rhe band?
apartment42bapartment42b on July 14th, 2005 08:52 pm (UTC)
^_^ What band?
interplanetblobinterplanetblob on July 14th, 2005 08:54 pm (UTC)
Apartment 42.
apartment42bapartment42b on July 14th, 2005 10:28 pm (UTC)
XD... I had no idea there was a band called Apartment 42. That's awesome. Mine's a Douglas Adams Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy reference- 42, and b because of the Golgafrinchem B-ark, and apartment just... because. I thought it sounded cool.

I should look up that band, lol.
interplanetblobinterplanetblob on July 14th, 2005 10:33 pm (UTC)
That's an awesome book.
are you lookin' to get stabbed?mutantjules on July 13th, 2005 10:40 pm (UTC)
dammit, you may have just converted me to J/P FOREVER.