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11 July 2005 @ 11:21 pm
Woo, another one!

Not Like This

By Cate

Summary: Sad John/Paul. Angsty as fuck, but I like it.

Word Count: 325.

"I love you, Johnny. I do."

"Don't leave me, Paul...."


"Stop telling me to shh, Macca, I mean it."

"Shh." Paul wraps his arms around John, perched on the edge of the counter, and pulls him close. "Oh Johnny...."

"Fuck off, alright?" He tries to make himself pull away, but can't. "I love you, God damn it," he says, laying his head against Paul's chest and closing his eyes tightly, unable to contain a sob.

Paul bites his lip. "Don't make this harder than it is, baby... don't cry, you don't have to cry, it hurts so much when you cry, John...."

He clings to his lover's waist, chest heaving with his tears. "Why are you doing this, Macca?"

"Shh... baby... I have to. You know I love you, you know how much you mean to me. It's fucking everything up-- making love every night, not wanting to wake up in the morning, Brian walking in on us sleeping together... baby, we can't keep this up, we can't concentrate in the studio, all we do is fight and go to the loo to shag and fight again, and... th-then we come here and fuck and hold each other and cry, and it's just... it goes on and on, and we can't do this anymore, Johnny."

"Fuck you," he sniffs, pulling back slightly, then falling back into Paul's arms. "Fuck you, Paul, you don't fucking get it anymore, it was always like this...."

"It wasn't." Paul swallows and bites back tears, breathing against John's hair. "Tell me you love me, Johnny."

He cries quietly, breathless, and nods. "I love you."

"I'll see you at Abbey Road tomorrow, John." Paul hooks a finger under John's chin and kisses the tears from his cheeks. "Remember that I love you too, because you won't hear it again."


"John, don't--"

"One more time, that's all, please...."

Swallowing, Paul nods quietly and allows John to unbutton his tear-stained shirt.

Current Mood: accomplishedaccomplished
Current Music: "Kentucky Rain"-- Elvis Presley
oh_johnny_oh_johnny_ on July 12th, 2005 10:47 am (UTC)
Awwww. Poor John :-( And look at Paul - all noble and stuff.


Il Gatto Puzzolone: catnip_martini on July 12th, 2005 07:37 pm (UTC)
I've got another bit of this that I still need to write, but the sequel's actually where the concept started-- when I finish it, should I post it?

Thank you! ♥!

oh_johnny_oh_johnny_ on July 12th, 2005 08:47 pm (UTC)
You need to ask? Of course you should post it!
savoytruffle27 on July 12th, 2005 12:30 pm (UTC)
:( that was really good. I had a tear :(
Il Gatto Puzzolonecatnip_martini on July 12th, 2005 07:37 pm (UTC)
Aw, thanks, luv... sorry to do that! ♥

hollywood_song on July 12th, 2005 03:47 pm (UTC)
Whoo! Two Cate originals in a row! Who can ask for more?

So pretty and sad. But still, amazing as usual. Awesome.
Il Gatto Puzzolonecatnip_martini on July 12th, 2005 07:38 pm (UTC)
Aw, that's really touching, there. Thank you so much!

(Anonymous) on July 12th, 2005 07:44 pm (UTC)
you're back! that was awesome.
Il Gatto Puzzolonecatnip_martini on July 12th, 2005 07:49 pm (UTC)
Absolutely! I can never stop for too long. :) Thank you!

interplanetblobinterplanetblob on July 14th, 2005 08:36 pm (UTC)
God, that was so sad.
And I don't think they'd have to worry about Eppy walking in on them.